This is the moment, this is exactly what she was born to be

Somewhere between consciousness and sleep, I convinced myself that I had a brilliant idea for a blog post.

Then I pressed snooze three times and now that idea is long gone.

Then I went to work. Today is my favorite day; I get to teach meditation to people at a drug and alcohol rehab clinic.

Today we talked all about mindfulness.. mindful eating, mindful breathing, mindful listening…

We talked about how life isn’t just about chasing the stuff we like and avoiding the stuff we don’t like/makes us uncomfortable. It’s about inhabiting our bodies, accepting our thoughts, directly observing our present reality, non-judgementally.

It’s a tall order. It’s stuff that I surely haven’t mastered. It’s something that we know we “should” do but that sometimes seems beyond what is “realistic.”

Then, toward the end of class, someone raised their hand and asked me to explain the relationship between energy, vibration, healing, meditation, yoga, etc….

And so I leaped into this explanation of vibrating matter, of Shiva and Shakti, of the cosmic beat, of attunement, of harmony…trying to take all angles into account, trying to turn the very ethereal into something relatable…and amazingly, this is what got the most head nods out of my entire talk. This was something that everyone intuitively recognized and accepted. They knew that returning to the dance of life was what constituted healing, even if it wasn’t in so many words (I am good at ranting sometimes..if only I could be as fluent in my writing!).

Anyway, lots of internal epiphanies occur on Fridays when I am so lucky to speak about this subject and its many sub-branches, but right now all I want to say is this:

I am blown away, astounded, in awe, and forever in gratitude, for the blessing that it is to share my insights with others as an aid to their healing.

We’ve all been in situations which feel like very tightly wound and complicated knots. It’s very frustrating to then realize how much we’ve made that knot tighter and more complicated! The work is accepting our past errors, mustering the patience and understanding to approach those knots, and begin to slowly and tenderly unravel… And once we’ve done some unraveling, we can help others with their knots…and learn from others about the knots we’ve yet to get to…and help each other in this very grand tapestry.

In the words of brilliant poet Naomi Shihab Nye from her poem “Kindness”

Before you know kindness as the deepest thing inside, you must know sorrow as the other deepest thing. You must wake up with sorrow. You must speak to it till your voice catches the thread of all sorrows and you see the size of the cloth.


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